Unbearably Gone Published in the December 2018 issue of Write Launch Literary Magazine poetry Once I sat in a haven of eternality a monument to saying farewell to loved ones fragrant with lilies and flowing with meaningful words comforted by a family with decades of integrity in handling my loved one’s grieving moments
Except instead of a haven of eternality I was in a mausoleum of temporary trickery and there were no lilies to rescue my tongue thick and rank with the noisome remnants of bodies trying to leave this world
Once I left you to rest in the heavenly slumber of your casket kept alive by faith and devotion with inspirational words of peace and wisdom written by me and tucked in your satin forever resting place
Except instead of leaving you to rest you were stored away in this hole for broken things temporarily fixed up and instead of speaking any words at all I was sick from the noxious fumes of death and the absurd illusion of forever
Once I sat through your end of life celebration while I unraveled at the walls people built under the burden of their grief I suppose they set about making funerals
This was the first of many places where I found you unbearably gone.